Trust me?!

Lately, I have been really upset with some people. I have lost count of how many people that have betrayed, lied, judged, telling untrue stories about me to other people behind my back, and other mean things to me, these past few years.. some are people that i'm not even close to, some are those i have been nice to, maybe some that i may have conflicts/issues with, some people just do it for fun and some are my close friends (i should say former close friends :p)... and yet, i still dare to trust some people and guess what?! the same thing happened again and again until i gave up and finally realized that i should'nt trust anyone.. and the more you're close to someone or the more you trust that someone, the more painful it gets when that someone hurts you in any ways.

and after going through some painful process, one of my friends reminded me "don't be afraid to trust again, but don't be stupid to trust someone easily, a person must earn the trust before you can give him/her your trust". well, what he said was right, i trusted people easily in the past to the point that i got hurt over and over again, thus its my fault.

In life, when something happened to you whether its a good or bad thing, it happened for a reason and you are the reason!

:)

Graduated

okay, its been more than 2 weeks since i last updated my blog.. and...

GOOD NEWS!!! got my results 5 days ago and yep, i passed everything so now, i'm just waiting for my graduation ceremony in 3 months-ish.. happy!

so i'm back in Indonesia now and happy to be with my family :)

as i probably have mentioned before, apart from being happy and excited, i'm pretty nervous and a bit scared since i'm not a student anymore, i have to face a real life now.. like supporting myself and less reliance on my parents, and there are some changes that need to be made and should'nt be ignored, to adjust to this different life that i'm going to face.

To all graduates, who just graduated like me, i wish you all the very best in your future :)

Towards the end of the year

WOOHHOOO!!! 


I am so very very happy..! Three days ago, i finally finished all my exams... so hopefully everything goes well then i can kiss UniSA goodbye...

So, here's some exciting upcoming events:
wed, 30/11/11: Christmas party with my friends
Since I was born, i never really celebrate Christmas with my family. Sometimes i celebrate it with friends, so this year before i go back home to Indonesia, my friends and i decided to do "secret santa" game and have christmas dinner together.

sat, 03/12/11: from Adelaide - Perth - Indonesia
so, on the 3rd of december, i'm going to Perth in the morning, for only a few hours, then catch another plane from Perth to Indonesia. Never been to Perth before but i heard its really quite there. I've heard a lot about Perth's famous Apple Strudel (Corica) and tasted it before and its lovely! So, i'll definitely get some for my family in Indonesia too..

From Perth, my next destination is my home country that i miss so much... :) I cant wait to be back home with my family! Full house! Everybody will be there, mom, dad, two sisters, one brother, two dogs. Its been a while since the whole family gathered. Last year when i went back home, my brother decided to stay in Adelaide and do summer course instead of going home. And it feels incomplete without him. So, i cant wait!!

between today and saturday (03/12/11), there are a lot of things that i must do:
1. cherry picking
2. going to my old house to get my stuff
3. fix my car
4. cook for christmas dinner
5. PACKING!!! (sigh there are so much stuff to be packed)

anyway, it 3am here... bye :)

14, 25, 26

14th, 25th and 26th of November, are the dates of my exams... and today is the 7th of November. So, I have exactly 7 days until my first exam. Since, my first exam is a first year subject - that i chose to do in my final semester to ease my final semester's burden and oh, i heard its one of the easiest subject - i will start studying 4 days before the exam. which i (and a lot of former students) think is enough preparation for the exam. meanwhile, since i dont know what to study for my 3rd year core subject, i decided to start revising my elective subject. but... y is it so hard to enjoy exam revisions? out of hundreds of lecture slides, i have done 2 slides so far, yes, ive only revised about 5% of chapter 1 out of 12 chapters. is it because of the weather? or maybe because im currently recovering from my cold and cough? or is it because of my house?

sigh... should stop blaming everything, its just my laziness, yes i know im lazy. i should push myself!

btw this past few days, the weather has been really nice and i love it. i always love spring and summer (minus the exam) :)

Singapore House

My friends have been asking me to try a restaurant called Singapore House. They said its superrr! So, my friends and i went there last week and most of the food we tried were really nice. YUM! cant wait to come back and eat there. The first time we stepped in we were shocked! its like the nicest Asian restaurant in Adelaide, we didnt really expect it to be that nice.

I find it weird having spicy tasty food as entree (as i usually eat it with rice). For example, the chilli soft shell crab. and have another food, say the duck leg for main (and eat it with rice). and we peeked other tables to see how big the portion is, and it was pretty big, so even ordering one main for ourselves would be too much. So my friend and i decided to share 4 main dishes. Some food we ordered are actually entree dishes but since we're sharing, we asked the chef to make it main size. And we struggled to finish everything.

and where's the picture of my duck? :( 

BRB *looking for my duck*

The Union Hotel

Bought a random voucher from scoopon and tried the Union Hotel with my friend. We ordered the entree plater (we can choose 3 entrees), two mains and a dessert to share. So, this is what we chose:

So, here's what i think:

Entree:
Overall, the entree was okay. The squid is not tasty enough but the beef medallion and asparagus cheese fritata are quite nice.

Main:
Honestly, I dont like the mains. The Eye fillet is ordinary and beef cheek.... i didnt even finish half of it.

Dessert:
The coconut crumble we chose for dessert was quite good, they served it with fresh cream and strawberry.

So, this is just my own opinion. If anyone disagree with my opinions, i apologize.

Milano Cucina

Few weeks ago, my friend and i went to Milano Cucina, an italian restaurant somewhere in hutt st (i'll provide the details below). Each of us ordered an entree and a main course. Many people i know was a disappointed with the food, but some food that we ordered was quite nice.

So, i don't think there's anything special with the smoked salmon (pic 1) but the soft-shell crab and calamari entree (2nd pic) is nice, i like the aioli sauce served with it.

The mushroom risotto (3rd pic) was nice, i like the flavor of the truffle. The blue swimmer crab linguine was hmm... (sorry) tasteless.

So, this is just my own opinion. Anyone who doesn't agree with whatever i wrote here, then i'm sorry if i disappoint anybody. Again, this is PURELY just my opinion.

Faith

I know, I can't take one more step towards you
'Cause all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You dont get to get me back


-Christina Perri- Jar of Hearts-

Cut some lyrics from the song "jar of hearts", being in love definitely has its risks.. being hurt by someone you really love is not unusual, my friend once told me:


"Eventually everyone in life is going to hurt you, you just have to figure out which people are worth the pain"


Someone i know very well, has just gone through a heart breaking storm. She was proud of herself for what happened to her, she said "I wanted to give up, it hurts so bad, but i stayed through the pain, i chose not to give up until the end. Although what I stood for gives me nothing until now, but i'm proud to know that i was faithful, coz this proves that i'm a winner... and I know something better awaits me". So, for you you you out there facing some hard times, dont give up, have faith, you'll win  :) 


"When God takes something away from you, He is not punishing you but merely opening your hands to receive something better" -Unknown-


Here's an inspirational song from a great singer that i listen a lot to when i'm down:


They can say, 
Anything they want to say,
Try to bring me down,
But I will not allow anyone to succeed hanging clouds over me,
And they can try 
How to make me feel that I, 
Don't matter at all,
But I refuse to falter in what I believe or loose faith in my dreams

'Cause there's, 
There's a light in me,
That shines brightly,
They can try, 
But they can't take that away from me
From me

Oh they, 
They can do
Anything they want to you, 
If you let them in,
But they won't ever win,
If you cling to you pride, and just push them aside,
See I, 
I have learned,
There's an inner peace I own,
Something in my soul that they can not possess
So I won't be afraid and the darkness will fade

They can't take this 
Precious love I'll always have inside me,
Certainly the Lord will guide me where I need to go

They can say 
Anything they want to say,
Try to bring me down, 
But I won't face the ground,
I will rise steadily sailing out of their reach,
Although they do try,
How to make me feel that I,
Don't matter at all,
But I refuse to fall,
Tell me what I believe or loose faith in my dreams,
'Cause there's a light in me,
That shines brightly yes


-Mariah Carey- Can't take that away from me-

Hello November

Hello november, i cant believe how fast time flies. Welcoming november means i should start preparing for my exams... three exams and im done with uni. well, HOPEFULLY! i still remember, when i was in year 12 about to graduate, i had a thought "omg im graduating year 12 soon, im going to start uni soon, cant believe it! feels like i just started yr 12 yesterday" and now im like... "omg im graduating uni in less than a month, time travels faster than anything, cant believe it, feels like i just started uni yesterday (not really) and then here i am about to graduate and the next thing i'll realize: i'm getting married then have kids then have grand kids, i'll be an old granma" ah well, we all have our times..

Anyway, here's what i did during the last week of October:
                 
                                            Halloween party:    

My friends and I at Halloween party!

It may be hard to recognize me, and yes i dont even believe it my self that i can be this scary. LOL. anyway, im going to put the blame on the boys. I was just testing the face paints that we bought before Halloween, i was about to wash it off my face but they wont let me. And when i came to the club, people were taking pictures with me because i was the scariest and my friends couldn't even recognize me. haha.


                                           Final Presentation:

This is me after presentation with my group mates... (missing one more person tho)

During our final semester, we have to do a subject called "integrated marketing topics" and at the end of our study, all students must present in front of scary marketing seniors that include former head of marketing school, associate professor and 2 tutors. And we have to wear formal clothes.

Apart from Halloween party and final presentation, during the week, i also:
- handed 2 projects
- another presentation for my other course
- eat a lot

So, it was a busy busy week.. and as some people know, november is a busy month for uni students.

wish me luck :D and good luck for those having their exam this month.

The mayonnaise jar and two coffee cups

I found this story and i love it! It has been around for quite a while, so maybe most of you have already read this before.

When things in your life seem, almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class
and had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
And proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open Areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively
filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things - family,
children, health, Friends, and Favorite passions –
Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, Your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else --The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued,
there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So...

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play With your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

'Take care of the golf balls first --
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled
'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
There’s always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

 

Dear bestfriend :)

This is for my best friend :) Thanks for everything...

Sometimes reality bites

and i cling too tight to my pride

but you are always on my side

and get me through my tides

Thanks for being my bestfriend

Keeping up with my life trends

Being there for me 'till the end

Always there to lend a hand

With love - D

Bugsy

He's a guinea pig. We called him Bugsy coz he looks like a guinea pig from a movie called "Bedtime Stories". I loved him so much. He is so cute, like SO SO SO CUTE OMG!!!!!!!!! (as you can see from his pics). Unfortunately, *sobs* he died, on the 27th of june 2010, which is a day after his birthday and a day before my birthday. I dont really know how he died, we all assumed that it happened because it was too damn cold that night.

                                             Little bugsy hiding im my pocket :)

                                             Bugsy with tuxedo and handmade rose

                                            King Bugsy

                                              Bugsy after shower


Dear Bugsy,
You have been gone for a while now
But you will always be in my heart
Thank you for being a great boy
You were part of my life
No other guinea pig can ever replace you
Rest in peace


Love, mommy.

First Love

Almost 8 years ago, i arrived here in Adelaide... geez, cant believe its been almost 8 years now.. time flies!

I came from a country where having a maid is not unusual. I dont have to do anything. No cooking, no washing, no cleaning and whatsoever. That's why my parents sent me here, to Australia, where i have to learn many many things in order to survive. I learnt how to cook from my eldest sister who is really good at cooking. Then i stretched my cooking skill from experiences and my love for cooking. 

Anyway........ it was 8 years ago, when i had to do "home economics" as one of my subjects at school. Home economics has nothing to do with the economy, its actually a cooking class. I have no idea why they named it "home economics". (whatever, lets cut the crap)

Back then, our school had a special event and I (who was doing home ec at that time) was appointed to make a cake that i must serve to a group of people (which include some students and teachers).

And here it is:

I know i know... it doesn't look that good, it was my first time baking anyway :p but this cake was my first love, this is where i found my passion for baking, after baking this! It always feel so good everytime i successfully baked. Although i'm not a very big fan of sweets myself.. but i like to make people happy from what i made (especially my little sister <3). I admit that i'm not that great at baking now, well... NOT YET, there are still a lot of stuff and techniques that i need to learn, but i know that i'll master it one day. 

First Post :)

I should be doing my assignment, wait... its ASSignmentSSS... anyway this is my first time posting in a blog so that should be a good excuse...

I have always wanted to blog since like a few years ago, but then i always forgot to do it... and the other day, when i saw one of my friends' blog, i was keen to make one so i did and everytime i wanted to post something, i ended up with nothing... so maybe this is a good start... :p

So, right now im still in Adelaide, South Australia... i have about a month and a few days till i graduate bachelor of management (marketing). YAY! im excited and scared at the same time... im going to face the real world soon!

Talking about Adelaide, its actually a very nice place. Some people might think that Adelaide is such a boring place, but once you've lived and explored Adelaide, you'll find this place pretty amazing... so, i'm pretty sure that i'll miss this place once i've moved to Sydney next year :) but yea i have always loved Sydney so im excited :D

So, a little info about me... i love food, music, baking, cooking, fashion, art, and many more... so, i'll post a lot about them :)

Enjoy my blog and thanks for reading :)

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