Happily tired

I am currently doing an internship at periplus office, somewhere in west Jakarta. And I am freakin tired, I've stayed in Jakarta (for my internship) for like 3 weeks-ish and I haven't even spent a weekend here in Jakarta. Although I'm tired having to go here and there, those weekends were GUHREAT (great). I get to spend those times with my big beloved family.

1st weekend: I went back to Bandung for Chinese New Year. This CNY is definitely different from other CNY events I have ever celebrated . Usually I visit my aunt from dad's side but this time mom's family gathered at my house. And in the afternoon, we celebrated my sister's, my two cousins', and cousin's wife's birthdays (they were born in January). What a blast! 

2nd weekend: I went to Surabaya for my cousin's wedding. I had trouble getting there, it was a long tiring hectic journey but yay I made it anyway. I had to pay extra for the flight I missed because I couldn't go to Bandung because of a bunch of people complaining that caused the traffic to be highly terrible and some roads were closed. Ah well whatever! I made it and it was a happy moment for the newly wed and our big family. 

3rd weekend: Had to go to Jogja/Jogya/Yogya for my other cousin's wedding. This time more cousins came (compared to my other cousin's wedding). And my little nephew came too and he is sooo cute. I'm staying with him now by the way, until i finished my internship. Well, the wedding party wasn't big but the food was pretty nice and we made our favorite aunt sang during the wedding ceremony (by sending a special request to the party host :p). Well it was really fun and I wish all the best for my cousin and his wife. 

and... I want to congratulate my pretty friend Cicilia (http://hijautransparan.blogspot.com/).. for her first day at work today. She's working at where I'm doing my internship. Hope she's happy with the job, learn a lot as time goes by, and one day pursue her own dream of becoming the owner of a big bookstore called peek-a-book. And tomorrow I'm gonna work with her yay! We'll kick some ass! 

Good Night xx

Crazy, yes I am

Okay, so my posts have been all serious and mellow.. Actually, I'm not that serious in person. Well.. depends, most people's first impression towards me: feminine, lady-like, serious, etc.. but once people get to know me better, most of them changed their minds. I'm not so close to be categorized "feminine" or lady like, tomboy but not too tomboy. I'm brave, crazy, talkative, playful, etc.. 

Since I'm having my graduation ceremony in less than 2 months and my life is going to change, there are some crazy things I wanna do before I have my graduation ceremony. Like.......... not-gonna-say-it-here! Well, working life doesn't mean I can't have fun (coz I will have fun regardless of anything), but its the time for me to be a real grown up and act like a grown up so I will have to set limitation to certain things. 

That Three Things

There are three things that you can’t take or have back. They are words, action and time. Once you’ve said or done something, you can’t undo it. Some people that you may have hurt from your words and/or action may forgive you but they might not be able to forget it. Depends on how big it is; the bigger the matter the harder it is to forget or in some case it may not be ever forgotten.

Time is one of the most precious thing, once you have missed something, then that’s it you just missed it. Once you wasted it, that’s it you can’t have more than that. Time is the reason why you can’t undo or redo your action or words. Because you can’t turn back time, not even the wealthiest person on earth. That’s a fact you can’t deny. So, cherish every moment you have. 

*credit to my friend EAH*

Deserve

"You don't deserve me, I don't deserve you" 

Popular saying?!

What do we really deserve? We never really deserve anything. You know, sometimes its just in our mind. We're the one who set ourselves what we "deserve" according to individual's criteria, satisfactory level, paradigm - its just about oneself. Paradigm leads to perception, perception leads to emotion (our emotional reaction towards something) -The shack, William P. Young-.

Life is full of choices, whether you want to be happy or you want to keep chasing what you "deserve". You want something, you work hard. If you don't get what you have expected then that is not meant to be for you. You'd think... "I have worked really hard and I deserve it" and it came from your mind. Only God who knows the real truth, so just give him whatever you have and He'll work things out for you coz He knows what's best for you, just trust him and He'll lead you to the right path. Well, this doesn't mean that you just give up on your dreams, God knows what you really want and He'll give you the best, He needs to see your effort too :) 

Happy New Year

Well, today is the 4th of January.. but hopefully its not too late to say HAPPY NEW YEAR. I know im not a good blogger, i don't even advertise my blog so that people can read, so only a few people know about this blog. Anyway, I could'nt blog on the 31st of Dec or 1st of Jan because I stayed over at the hospital accompanying my mum who just had an operation.

At that time, when 2011 has just ended, i wanted to write so much so I typed it in my phone so I can copy paste it here :)

01-01-2012

2011 December, my family is reunited, no one is missing, we even have our old maid back working with us. For this new year celebration (although mum and dad doesnt really celebrate new year) I was expecting this complete family to be together hugging each other after we did our countdown. But here I am with my brother accompanying mum in the hospital, while dad, eldest sis and lil sis went home. I am now watching the fireworks from the hospital window while remembering other new year activities that I did during the past few years that I can remember.

For me, many thing happened during 2011. It leaves me with lots of memories, some sweet and some bitter. However, through it all there is not even a second I spent, without great blessing and love from God. I am standing right here, right now, getting ready to step into 2012. A new year with new great journeys, overflowing blessings, love, happiness, success, and may God add more wisdom to me and all my beloved ones :)

Good bye 2011 and welcome 2012 :) It's going to be an awesome year!

Trust me?!

Lately, I have been really upset with some people. I have lost count of how many people that have betrayed, lied, judged, telling untrue stories about me to other people behind my back, and other mean things to me, these past few years.. some are people that i'm not even close to, some are those i have been nice to, maybe some that i may have conflicts/issues with, some people just do it for fun and some are my close friends (i should say former close friends :p)... and yet, i still dare to trust some people and guess what?! the same thing happened again and again until i gave up and finally realized that i should'nt trust anyone.. and the more you're close to someone or the more you trust that someone, the more painful it gets when that someone hurts you in any ways.

and after going through some painful process, one of my friends reminded me "don't be afraid to trust again, but don't be stupid to trust someone easily, a person must earn the trust before you can give him/her your trust". well, what he said was right, i trusted people easily in the past to the point that i got hurt over and over again, thus its my fault.

In life, when something happened to you whether its a good or bad thing, it happened for a reason and you are the reason!

:)

Graduated

okay, its been more than 2 weeks since i last updated my blog.. and...

GOOD NEWS!!! got my results 5 days ago and yep, i passed everything so now, i'm just waiting for my graduation ceremony in 3 months-ish.. happy!

so i'm back in Indonesia now and happy to be with my family :)

as i probably have mentioned before, apart from being happy and excited, i'm pretty nervous and a bit scared since i'm not a student anymore, i have to face a real life now.. like supporting myself and less reliance on my parents, and there are some changes that need to be made and should'nt be ignored, to adjust to this different life that i'm going to face.

To all graduates, who just graduated like me, i wish you all the very best in your future :)